Freedom

Sometimes I wish I could be free of my cynicism, my pessimistic outlook, and doubtful attitude. There are times where I certainly wish I was more idealistic, and not so jaded by my experience in the public realm. I think about the office job, the sitting behind a computer screen for hours, and lack of interaction with people.

I think about whether or not I will ever find something I am passionate about, that I truly enjoy. I think about how my world view has changed into a bitter view of how dominant the Eurocentric ideology and thought process is. It makes me wonder if I will ever be open to ideas again.

I wonder.

I always wonder.

When will anything become certain and happy again in my professional life? When will I be excited again?